Ghosts of the past

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For some reason, I took a look at my ex's dA page. We haven't met or talked at all since we broke up, we've completelly cut off contact of any sort and I just felt curious about her. And to find out that she's now married and had a daughter just a week ago was a very hard pill to swallow. And, making the math, I found out that she got knocked up only about a month after we broke up. Seriously? Did she really get over me just like that? Was I that meaningless to her? Did I dodge the bullet when I broke up with her or did I waste the chance of a lifetime? Am I really over her now or did I just convince myself that I was? She has moved on, she sounded happy and motherly in her poems and journal entries while I'm here, still stuck in this dead end, still alone and feeling like jack shit. Why does her happiness fill me with hate and envy? Why do I care? And why am I writing this instead of freaking out? 

Why?...
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Aurora9912's avatar
I know I'm late in commenting, I hope that by now you've found some resolution of your feelings about her. Everyone moves on at different times, although if she became pregnant within a month from you it seems possible that it was more of an "oops!" than anything else.

It's good you came here instead of freaking out-you're used to sharing your words here and you have friends here to bounce your feelings off of. Wish I had been here then. You asked about time, and how long it takes...I still love my ex-husband, but I don't like him and I divorced him for very good reasons. That was 27 years ago. Real love may stay forever, but it must be combined with like, respect, caring, all without jealousy and anger.

Take care, and I will be posting a pic after the 20th, the long-awaited day! Talk soon.

Lori 💖🐺