Dear parents

I know you've always loved me
You're proud of me
But that's not enough
And you should know it

Back when I was a little kid
New to the world
You were always so busy
Always so stressed
And I was just there
Trying my best to help
And to not get in the way
Used to deal with my own problems
Since I had no right to burden others

At elementary school
I always had the best grades
With minimal effort
So everything was fine to you
I was a perfect child
But I had no friends
I was always alone
I never shared my thoughts
I just wanted to go unnoticed
To be a ghost

I got to middle school
And my life went to Hell
Still no friends
Bullied all the time
By everyone around me
My grades went down
And so did my spirit
I just wanted everything to end
But I kept it all to myself
Not to worry you

High school came
And with it
I got my heart broken
The girl I was so passionate about
Was a bitch after all
And being rejected
Made me the laughing stalk once more
The pain was unbearable
I had to let it out
Suicidal became appealing

Next it was college
Still all alone
Always at my dark corner
Without a single friend
I resorted to self harm
so I could feel something
But my good grades returned
So there were no worries
Everything was fine
Or so it seemed

Eventually, I had to remove the mask
You know all of it now
The bullying, the suicidal thoughts, the cuts
And all the rest
And guess what?
I'm not even mad at you
Your mistakes turned into my skills
My pain became my catalist
And I know myself better than most people

So thank you for breaking me